i am still trying...

15/07/2009

at first gal A told me that she feels tt gal B is very unfriendly...

and i tried to make them talk to each other..

coz i tot it would be good to form a larger clinque...

and thus more fun!....

but i was wrong very wrong...

i shouldnt have done it...

now i really regret what i have done...

i should not have told u tt she's not as bad as u think...

and she will be better when u kinow her long enuf...

i should not have told u so so so much...

i really regret..

maybe this is what i brought upon myself...

i really think that i should not have done all these..

if i didnt do so, i will be much happier today...

BUT now...

the outcome was so diff from what i wanted..

now Gal A and B become so close tt both of them almost ignored me..

they was so preoccupied with each other..

everytime when i tried to talk to A she wont be listening to me...

i had to repeat myself for a few more times until she gets wad i say...

i aam tired of repeating myself everytime i talk to her...

i am trying not to care so much anymore...

u want to talk to me or not its up to you...

and gal B was even better...

i really dk what she wants from me..

i am totally clueless!..

pls tell me what u want?

when i am close to gal C u came and u become closer to her...

making me felt so left out...

and after tt i decided to move on and found a new fren which is galA then u are back here agn..

taking her away frm me...

i really dk why!....

i am tired i just dont wanna care anymore...

u all cn do wad u all like...

i hate this feeling...

i hate being left out..

i dont feel like caring about anything tt all of u wanna do anymore...

i dunwan to be a leech either...

so pls just stop it...

give me a break...

just leave me alone...

i had enuf of these...

i think i can suvive better on my own..

at least i wont have to feel left out...

i am really really scared of tt felling...

so pls spare me...

my teddy is still the best...

14july2009

i woke up in the morning and found tt i have gt sore eyes..

went to sch and was stopped by tr at the gate...

they wanted to send me home but in the end they didnt..

just asked a few qn like do u have cough flu or fever...=.=

time passes real slow during lectures...

everytime i look at the clock only a few mins difference..

ppl in my class are getting more and more hardworking..

except me..

i have got lots of work to catch up on but i am still slacking..

i know i shouldnt but i really have gt no mood to study...

i have no mood to have fun in sch no mood to talk..

i have been doing my own things during the whole of econs lesson...

drawing all over my paper..

and see how pathetic my econs test is 4/45...

haha what a joke...

I still have lots of work to complete...

i reached home and no one was at home..

nobody told me tt they wont be home tt early...

i called my sis and she shouted at me...

she doesnt want to come home and open the door for me..

she ask me to just go somewhere until everyone goes home...

whr's her respect for me?

i dk...

i dont know wads wrong...

sch just dont feel the same as before anymore...

i used to enjoy sch but now i dont..

i rather stay home the whole day and rot...

why is it tt she's always the one who wants to take everything away frm me??

i duno if she's still the fren tt i use to know in sec2..

everything just seem so different..

she really make me feels very left out..

i think i shld just leave everyone alone and do things my own way..

maybe this is the best choice for me now..

i am tired...

learned how to play golf to day..didnt really enjoy much..

after tt went bball-ing...yAy-ness!!!=D

den home-ed...

i sometimes really dont know why u want to do these...

it makes me think if u're just treating me a backup person or wad...

its like when u have frens u dont care about me at all...

but when u couldnt find someone to accompany u,

u will den look for me...

just telll me what u're thinking..

i am tired of guessing...

i sent u an sms asking u out for bball but u didnt reply me at all,

when u know tt i hate ppl who doesnt reply my sms-es..

i was waiting for yr reply but u nv did...

but u could go out for bball-ing with other guys...

but why???

cn u tell me why??

13july2009

didnt do very well for my summer test...

so far only passed 2 subjects...

and i failed my maths!..

gonna get it from daddy and mummy after ptm...

but for now i shld just enjoy myself 1st...:)

THXS PPL FOR GIVING ME SUCH A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY!

i really enjoyed tt few days after summer test..

really had lots of fun..

the 1st week of sch after summer test just ended...

many things happened..

i have gt surprise...

have gt unhappy thing happening too...

but its now solved i think..

hopefully bah...

11days:)

i will be counting down...

Had GP and chinese paper today...

paper was okay didnt study for it...

sometimes i really wonder...
is what i always think true?
i thought i hav found new frens..
better frens in my present sch...
i tot life would be much happier here...
am i wrong?

or is it fated that i cant make a fren of the same sex that i can really trust?
why do ppl always do the similar things to me?
is it my attitude prob?
or is there something wrong with me?
can somebody just tell me?

maybe for all these times i am bluffing myself
i am going to have fun in this sch...
have new and better frens..
but i was wrong
totally wrong!
i really duno wad i shld do now...

maybe my mummy was right
that i wanst as smart as my bro..
wasnt as sharp as my sister..
i finally uds wad she said to me..
i think i am really a big blur idiot..

there's no one i can trust...
maybe there is...
but i just cant make myself trust them totally..
i dunwan to repeat the same mistake that i have made so many times...
even an idiot also would knw when to stop...

i am really trying very hard to be happy...
but...
somethings just doesnt allow me to...
is there really such things called "true friends"?

maybe wad my mummy always say is right..........

PeiQi is unhappy now! =(

BYE!

maybe i thought too much..

i am uncertain of how u feel now..

i shld stop myself from falling further for now...

why dun u just tell me how u feel?

tell me what i think about u was right?

had fun playing hide-and-seek with trs during the 2 nights staying in the hostel=X

didnt noe i gt such great frens until ytd night=D

i really think that i hav made the right choice for coming to IJ

i will rmb tt particular night forever...

went for movie ytd with tavin ingyen jason and philo

watched terminator salvation..

totally dun uds wad the movie is about..

Slacked frm morning till now...

dont feel like doing anything...

mummy has been shouting and screaming for the whole morning...

now she's out...:D

i'm alone in my room now...

super peaceful...

i am going to be bored to death soon...

feel like doing some revision...

but no mood to do it...

so just use com...

to kill time

OMG...
still have lotsa hmwk left to do:(...

Slack during pw tutorial today...

talked about visiting pulau ubin to cycle..:D

den had GP lecture...

navin and frens were super funny...

Jokers...haha

den had chem prac...

ppl from moe came for lesson observation one big group=.=

den had mths tutorial!=DD

ate lollipop in class..

and Cijie brought a whole packet of chips into class and pass it around...

den had GP tutorial...

MS SU!!!!=.=

she said to me: your file is so small u think can put everything in??? u think u small yr file and everything must be small also???

wth...-.-

den had NYAA talk during pe...

super hot...

den went cwp with samuel eereena agnes and glen...

i feel very odd one out...

thxs to eereena and agnes for trying to include me in their conversation..=D

had oreo chocolate bubble tea:D

home-ed

tired

tell me who can do well for exams without studying??

if not, why do u want to tell us that u didnt study for it??

what do you gain from doing this??

u called this frens??

i really dun uds you...

i know wad u wrote on yr blog refers to me..

but its wad u think...

its all last min plan...

i hate school!

i am tired of everything!

went sentosa today..

tired...

MAC for dinner...

its chinese new year!... BUT i HATE being at home... no one respect me... even my bro and sis shout and hit me... and my parents did nth about it.. everything blamed on me... money missing sae i steal... wth...i gt work i gt my own money why must steal... and its just a pathetic $15 which my bro claim tt he had lost... and i duno whr he get tt 15bucks... i bought a bag... with my OWN $.. my dad ask me whr i get tt money frm...=.=... of coz my own lah... he and mummy didnt even give me any money... everything i pay myself... buy a few clothes den so many comments... i really duno wad to sae... and my mummy realli realli hopes to see tt i get scoldings frm my daddy... ytd my sis scolded me on the road and shouted idiot to me... damn embarrassing... totalli no respect... went home and told my mummy.. instead of hlping me... she scolded me... T.T..i have totalli no respect frm the ppl at home!... i hate thisi really hate this... totally moodless now...

went to my uncle's hse for dinner...

eat whole day...

non-stop...=X
hlp-ed to cook...

nth else...

26/01/2009

went for reunion dinner..

25/01/2009

nothing interesting happen today...
went bugis and far east alone...
den aft tt went shopping in malaysia city square with my mummy & sis...
when my mummy was bathing...
this big fat lizard was 'running' around in my parents room...
my dad caught it and put it in a plastic bag...
took some photos of it when my bro is holding it...
the pics are abit gross...=X

and after tt we set it free outside out house...
coz we think tt the lizard is pregnent...
tts all...

23/01/2009

I LOVE MY JOB!!!

i love the hotel i am working in...

i made many frens...

i learnt alot of things...

had lots of fun!...

esp when doing OT...

can slack...

eat the hotel food...

AND..

the best part is i can now serve VIP table...=D

ppl who are very rich came to this hotel...

Worked on wednesday...

And...

in the canteen...

Mon: PeiQi, come here..

Me: ??? (i walked over to his table)

Mon: next time u shld pin yr hair like hers (pointing to Grace's fringe)

Me: Why leh?

Mon: like that you 2 look more like sisters ma...

Me: o.0

Mon: today Grace and you will be serving the VIP table ma...like tt look more like twin...

Me: =.=

and everybody sitting at Grace's table started laughing...

then went up to report at the ballroom...

and today's dinner is not a wedding dinner...

it is a wedding anniversary dinner..

70th platinum wedding anniversary of Mr & Mrs Chia...

everyone was like WOW...

70 yrs alr still so loving...

den after tt serve serve and serve...

nth interesting happen...

just tt the emcee abit kiasu...

he went to prepare a glass of red wine there long ago be4 the toast..

made me hold tt glass of redwine and stand beside the stage for nth...

after dinner end did OT...

was damn tired tt night...

i have no idea why...

haha...

but had fun!...

aft OT back to canteen...

chatted with khairul, shanas,and a few others...

which i cant rmb their names or duno their names=X...

den took hotel transport home...

chatted with khairul...

learnt quite alot of things from him tt day...

quite meaningful...

AND LASTLY...

some pics taken 1 week ago during OT...

in the canteen...during our break...XD

they were trying to pose with tt thing tt is 'park-ed' down there..

damn funny...











in the lift...

THE guest toilet!!!...

we were not suppose to enter...

but we sneaked in...=X

the toilet is damn nice!!!!

(the shirt abit too big for me..=X)

4/1/09

Happy New Year!

This is the place that i work on new year's eve to new year day..

its some private dinner...

worked tgt with yvonne and one guy (idontkonw his name=X)...

6ppl was eating tgt and they drank 12 bottles of wine...0.0

average is every course 2 bottles of wine=.=

all differents types somemore...

plus is the 1970s and 1980s wine...

rich people=.=

workerd from 5pm to morning 3.30am..

each ticket to the new year countdown in the ballroom was $500...

omg...o.0

did new year countdown in st.regis hotel's ballroom...

everyone was so high..

evern the servers, captains and managers..

some were dancing around...

then went back to this 'private dinner' place...

waited for them to finish talking...

so that we can clear the place...

we got tips!=D

(me and LiYuan)=)

After clearing...

we went to change...

got to take cab home..

coz no more transport..XD

4 person share 1 cab...

we sat on the pavement right n front of the staff entrance of the hotel..

expecting a cab to stop for us by just raising our hand and waving...LOL

but none stop-ed..=S

some u turn in front of us...

some just went pass...

den a gal stood up...

and wave...

and finally we gt a cab!...

den..

HOME-ed

=D

1/1/09

My name tag=)

belongs to hilton hotel only gt to work there 1 day..

in the executive lounge...

not very fun..

st.regis's better=D