i am still trying...

15/07/2009

at first gal A told me that she feels tt gal B is very unfriendly...

and i tried to make them talk to each other..

coz i tot it would be good to form a larger clinque...

and thus more fun!....

but i was wrong very wrong...

i shouldnt have done it...

now i really regret what i have done...

i should not have told u tt she's not as bad as u think...

and she will be better when u kinow her long enuf...

i should not have told u so so so much...

i really regret..

maybe this is what i brought upon myself...

i really think that i should not have done all these..

if i didnt do so, i will be much happier today...

BUT now...

the outcome was so diff from what i wanted..

now Gal A and B become so close tt both of them almost ignored me..

they was so preoccupied with each other..

everytime when i tried to talk to A she wont be listening to me...

i had to repeat myself for a few more times until she gets wad i say...

i aam tired of repeating myself everytime i talk to her...

i am trying not to care so much anymore...

u want to talk to me or not its up to you...

and gal B was even better...

i really dk what she wants from me..

i am totally clueless!..

pls tell me what u want?

when i am close to gal C u came and u become closer to her...

making me felt so left out...

and after tt i decided to move on and found a new fren which is galA then u are back here agn..

taking her away frm me...

i really dk why!....

i am tired i just dont wanna care anymore...

u all cn do wad u all like...

i hate this feeling...

i hate being left out..

i dont feel like caring about anything tt all of u wanna do anymore...

i dunwan to be a leech either...

so pls just stop it...

give me a break...

just leave me alone...

i had enuf of these...

i think i can suvive better on my own..

at least i wont have to feel left out...

i am really really scared of tt felling...

so pls spare me...

my teddy is still the best...

14july2009

i woke up in the morning and found tt i have gt sore eyes..

went to sch and was stopped by tr at the gate...

they wanted to send me home but in the end they didnt..

just asked a few qn like do u have cough flu or fever...=.=

time passes real slow during lectures...

everytime i look at the clock only a few mins difference..

ppl in my class are getting more and more hardworking..

except me..

i have got lots of work to catch up on but i am still slacking..

i know i shouldnt but i really have gt no mood to study...

i have no mood to have fun in sch no mood to talk..

i have been doing my own things during the whole of econs lesson...

drawing all over my paper..

and see how pathetic my econs test is 4/45...

haha what a joke...

I still have lots of work to complete...

i reached home and no one was at home..

nobody told me tt they wont be home tt early...

i called my sis and she shouted at me...

she doesnt want to come home and open the door for me..

she ask me to just go somewhere until everyone goes home...

whr's her respect for me?

i dk...

i dont know wads wrong...

sch just dont feel the same as before anymore...

i used to enjoy sch but now i dont..

i rather stay home the whole day and rot...

why is it tt she's always the one who wants to take everything away frm me??

i duno if she's still the fren tt i use to know in sec2..

everything just seem so different..

she really make me feels very left out..

i think i shld just leave everyone alone and do things my own way..

maybe this is the best choice for me now..

i am tired...

learned how to play golf to day..didnt really enjoy much..

after tt went bball-ing...yAy-ness!!!=D

den home-ed...

i sometimes really dont know why u want to do these...

it makes me think if u're just treating me a backup person or wad...

its like when u have frens u dont care about me at all...

but when u couldnt find someone to accompany u,

u will den look for me...

just telll me what u're thinking..

i am tired of guessing...

i sent u an sms asking u out for bball but u didnt reply me at all,

when u know tt i hate ppl who doesnt reply my sms-es..

i was waiting for yr reply but u nv did...

but u could go out for bball-ing with other guys...

but why???

cn u tell me why??

13july2009

didnt do very well for my summer test...

so far only passed 2 subjects...

and i failed my maths!..

gonna get it from daddy and mummy after ptm...

but for now i shld just enjoy myself 1st...:)

THXS PPL FOR GIVING ME SUCH A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY!

i really enjoyed tt few days after summer test..

really had lots of fun..

the 1st week of sch after summer test just ended...

many things happened..

i have gt surprise...

have gt unhappy thing happening too...

but its now solved i think..

hopefully bah...

11days:)

i will be counting down...