YAY! just home-ed

which is the end of all fun:(

after today tmr will be the beginning of a REAL BAD nightmare

got no plans for tmr yet

so i guess i'll be spending my last min of 2009 and 1st min of 2010 in YISHUN STARBUCKS

wad a sad life:(

meeting 9am tmr

thaats all

off to bath~

i'm so looking forward to tmr..

i should be going to slp by now..

i am VERY VERY tired

i'm late for meeting today but i had alot of fun!

got SUNBURNT!

sometimes i just got pissed off by ppl like u

ask u to come from half a day u cant

u have no responsibility at all

think lah pls

i gt so so so many things to do

dont even have time for myself and still need me to cover u

u think who i'm? god?

SCHOOL'S ON for me

even its NEW YEAR'S EVE AND NEW YEAR!

ask u to be here for one meeting

is it really that hard?

THNK LAH PLS
how tired i'm

how shag i'm

school everyday

MY HOMEWORK STILL NOT DONE!

u have time to go out and have fun

ever think of me?

think of how i feel?

if u're tired i'm even more tired.

Promises are meant to be broken.

i dont feel like sleeping now:(

and i cant sleep

YAYAYAYAY!

christmas is here!

which means no sch for 4 days straight:D

reached home arnd 1 plus in the morning haha

went timbre with many ppl and i'm the only one 17

which means no alcohol for me

but i drank abit:D

not nice one

after that sit there everyone talk den go home

FUNFUN!:D

NINJA ASSASSIN!

Everything's back haunting me again.

change my heart and brain please

yay! i had great fun these few days

really is a PERFECT GETAWAY!~

i felt so relaxed

with everything off my mind:DD

played majong all the way till 530am

my cousins are all asleeped by now

i'm going off to slp now too!:)

yesterday night was super hard to slp

eyes super pain even till now

the thing just keeps on going in my head

i just cant stop thinking about it

but nvm..

morning woke up

and it RAINED!!!!!

which means

training is CANCELLED....

i'm very very very happy today!:D

had alot of funnnnn!!!!!

at least i felt so relax today

its like after so long

free from all troubles everything

totally off

super shiok!

morning met XX Serene Jaw YiQi

duno why chuenhui and his cousin end up watching with us

but nvm

watched avatar3D!

SUPER NICE!

i want to watch again!!!!!!!

super love the place inside the movieee

after that...

went to have super nice douhua<3

and i made a stupid joke

but nvm still enjoyed myself:)

finish eating den to LAN!!!

my first time there!

they taught me how to play

killing ZOMBIES AFTER ZOMBIES

we were making alot of noise here and there shouting and shouting<333

its really damn fun

a total diff world

i want to go there again!

yay!

i really really really feel like saying it all out

all these things that u've done

its just too much

too much that i can take

the thing is

but i cant

i really cant

because i know i'm not supposed to

because i know no one would believe me

no one would want to believe wad i said thanks to u

continue spreading rubbish and dont try to use me as a channel

as u know after yr testing

i aren't capable of it

U MADE ME USED THE WORD ON U,

I DIDNT WANTED TO...

Yes today i found out one more thing

its not funny to try spreading rumours that i am a gossiper or wad

and your EXPERIMENT WASNT A SUCCESS

so STOP trying to prove stupid things

wad a prank huh

tell me that CH likes myfren

expect me to spread to everyone huh?

so did yr plan succeed??

funny right?
no one ever mention it

wad a bet

F*** YOU LAH
i'm really pissed

STOP YR NONSENSE AND TRY TO ACT GOOD IN FRONT OF ME

wad did u tell everyone

say i am a gossiper

which can spread rumours around well right?

i think U ARE THE ONE!

u think u're that good

go to hell lah

u think this is a good way to test?

sabo-ing yr GOOD FREN???

F U lah

STOP BETTING WITH OTHER PPL!

u think by telling me that a prank that u make up about CH liking her its funny?

u hope that i would go around telling other ppl?

HAHA! too bad for you then

i know u think that i'm a person that cant be trusted

thats wad U and YOU YOURSELF who thinks so only

stop making other ppl believeing u huh

u not some holy GOD or waD

come on lah

did anyone heard about wad CH like IY?

NO RIGHT?!

SO U GO TO HELL LAH

in the end i'm still a toy for everyone....

trg almost killed me today

had a very very bad stomach ache after trg today

cant even walk

zzz

today one more of my good fren went overseas

everyone is overseas

oh man...........

if u're here to comment on everything that i wrote on my blog

i would rather u not seeing anything.

everytime when its time to go home

i will feel like staying out a lil' more

even its just 1 hour 1 min or 1 sec

really

home is like hell to me

because u nv know when will the next scolding comes and go

when will they be nice and not nice

very unpredictable

sometimes i just wish that i'm just a normal student in school

with little commitments

enjoying my jc life everyday...

but thats nv possible now...

my god! please save me!

zzzz

i wrote there WHAT I WRITE MIGHT NOT BE TRUE!

read again before u say anything.

and pls i am NOT telling the whole world

nobody ask u to follow my blog

if u dont want an access to it i can remove it

and HONESTLY the only ppl that has access to this blog has

ONLY 3 PERSON!!!!!!

YOU AGNES AND HONGYU

and for yr info he's away from SG

no other ppl read it

so i didnt tell the whole world about this

i just write wad i feel

and its YOUR blog that is telling the whole world now not mine

"you are here to comment n push all the blame to us...like you are the good guy and we are the bad guy..telling everyone who have access to your blog that I'm so EVIL & BAD"

because i know i have no one that i can talk to.

this is the only place that i can vent my anger on.

and wad blame did i push onto you all

and wad am i the good guy and you all are the bad guy?

and at the start of the year i didnt want to left u out

i know i have been sitting arnd with agnes and gang

and i had told agnes that u dint want to come sit with us

even though i tried to ask u to

u explained that u were always with adelene because u dont want her to be alone

so I DID NOT LEFT U OUT ON PURPOSE!

you didnt wanted to join us for whatever reason i dont know

its not about taking things away ok

the problem is that do anyone of u trust me?

i know there's reflection to be done upon myself

and there's some misinterpretation of things that has been said b/w u and agnes

and for one thing i'm very very sure of is that

I DID NOT SAID THAT U SNATCH MY BF OR WHATSOEVER

and the thing that u said made me feel so hurt is that

that time when we were clarifying things

u said that

did i realise that i've been the talker and u have been the listener for all these years?

its like if u dont want to listen to my probs u can just say it right into my face instead of using it as a defending part when it comes to sorting things out

and this blogging IS THE ONLY place where i can say out everything that i feel or think

when there is no one to talk to

i nv intend to start out a blog war or wadever

and if i dont act as if nothing happen

and be ok with u

u want a scene whr we start quarreling out of no where?

u dont have to follow my blog if u dont want to

just tell me so

why use it as something to quarrel over?

just tell me i can remove yr access to it

and all these is just meant to be written when i'm upset

and i already said that those things that i wrote might not be true

i dont know wad else is there to say

but everything just seemed so messed up now

i need someone to lead me the right way

out of all these mess

and i dk is it obvious or is it that i'm thinking too much

everytime i tried to talk to the both of u

its like just non seems interested

replies were always short

and this just tells me that u all are just being careful towards me and that everything that i explained the last time nonn of u believed it

and may think that i'm a schemer or so

and if u could tell me wads my prob?

and i said if u think that its not true can just feel free to msg me and i mentioned at least 2 times that all those things might not be true its just wad i think

yay! today went out had fun!

i wish everyday was like that

ate astons

watched PLANET51:)

i'll be waiting for u to come back

and to some bitches out there..

if u seriously feels that i'm a flirt den go ahead spreading rumours

continue to be jealous..

if u feel better by doing so...

continue i wont stop u!

clarify things from the guys first ok?

pls

i dont flirt

its basic courtesy to reply ppl when they talk to u

didnt yr parents teach u that?

if there didnt then i think u should learn it like NOW!

i really wonders why cant we be like others..

even if its just the 3 of us are frens i dont mind...

3 still can be very good frens..

but now seriously

if u're just making use of me den forget it..

u said u are rushing for time yr relatives are at yr house...

but u can afford to wait there for me to come and hlp u settle the prob

and after everything is settled you just went off

cant even wait for a few more mins so that we can walk to the station tgt

why?

and if u dont believe me that i told her u cant work like 1 week b4 its yr prob

theres nth i can do if u dont trust me

i was there i tried to talk to u

and the way u react to me was like WTF?!

if u dont treat me as yr fren anymore den just tell me so i can disappear from yr life

if this is the way u're going to treat me I DONT NEED A FREN LIKE YOU!!!!!!

and u think money can buy u frens?

den continue to be naive...

this is wad i think it might not be true

but i'm just expressing myself

afterall this is a free world!

if u manage to come across this post anything that u thnk its not true just feeel free to msg me

its not me wanting to be bitchy but i really cant stand it anymore

if u're just making use of me den stay away from me

and stop taking advantage of me..

i tried to make u frens with agnes and now see what happens

u took away everything from me...

leaving me with no frens

so u think u're a good fren worthy enuf to be my fren?

u wont look for me unless u need me...

take this holiday for example.

u nv msg me or call me at all

and the only time u called me was about the pay!

and we're like best frens for 2-3 years?

u had nv treat me so well so as to buy things for me

unless there is some special occasion

and i seriously thinks that

the way u tried to reply my sms is still that fake like u're forced to reply me nicely

afraid that i would be unhappy with u agn ( u can say that i am just trying to find prob with u but seriously i already said i am just typing wad i think and it might not be true )

and i am very sure that u kept buying things for agnes because u're afraid to lose her as a fren

and u want her to think that u 're the only one good to her

u're afraid that i might be closer to her den u do..

u can nv be trusted...

u betrayed me how many times?

continue to buy things for her...

let me tell u

U HAVE WON THE BATTLE!

are u happy???

i'm sure u do.

i'm not as rich as u guys to go have good food everytime...

so u can continue buying things for her making her feel that you're the best

GO AHEAD!

i'm not as capable as u

i dont have such a good life like u!

thanks for taking everything away from me

thanks for making me felt so bad

u think i want to be so emo in sch

let me tell u the feelings really sucks

thanks to u alright?

do u feel proud of what u've done?

u've made3 such a great impact in my jc life..

thanks for hurting me so much.

go on tell the whole world about this i dont give a damn...

i had enuf

10/12/2009

10dec

went for orientation meeting in the morning..

i still have loads of orientation meetings to attend for the rest of the holidays..

damn...

holiday= no holiday

planned to go down to outram park to get my pay...

msged ingyen asking her to go tgt...

she told me to...

but she was on her way there already..

so had to go myself...

left school 140pm..

trained down to outram park..

on the way there..

ingyen called...

saying that tcc didnt pay us correctly...

so she waited for me there...

after clarifying things...

she went off first..

den i went down to cathay to watch storm riders!

its super nice!:D

walked around in orchard..

and one guy was doing some proj or wad

he said he need to get rejected-.-

so he pretend to ask me something and i was to say no...

so help-ed him...

and homed

9dec

skip training and mr wong was damn angry with me...

he talks about commitment to me

when i seriously think that the whole team only me and aaron are the commited ones.

so zzz-.-

so nvm i enjoyed my day!

went sky tower and had sakae buffet for dinner!

8/12/2009

8dec

glen tried to prank jason and plan failed.

so too bad.

To think i have such a unworthy fren..

i finally know this dark side of u

after knowing u for so many yrs...(not refering to glen)

nice one thanks alot.

i dk if u really forgot or just didnt want to tell me.

do let it be

i got nth to lose