23/20/2010

Yes, everyone u know WILL HURT YOU in one way or the other

to think that all along i thought i've finally known someone that isn't that selfish, isn't that realistic..
BUT i was wrong.
what she did today let me think otherwise.

U told me u dont want to use com,
thats not the point.
u want my notes
maybe thats the reason why u r nice to me
why cant u just ask for it from me?
why do u even have to do this.

i thought i was able to have real frens that could made me feel good
let me have that feeling where there's a fren that u can talk to
u can have fun and enjoy with
BUT I WAS WRONG.

even the closest person to me chose to hurt me.
what else can i expect?

things had been sucky for the past week.
deleted my facebook account
i hate everything about my life.
its graduation day today.
but i dont feel the joy at ALL
even though i have been waiting for this day for a very long time.

i should learn to start protecting myself.


18days to alvl.
tell me what can i do?
i felt so helpless
the day is nearing
i know im not gonna do well
i dont want to repeat.
and why must everything come crashing on me at this point in time
i said i dont care.
i look like i dont care
but deep down
im really really scared
but
BUT WHO CAN UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL NOW?
no one ever understands

I've choose to trust no one anymore.