after having so many activities for this stupid holiday
everything seems so tough
even at home
everything just sucks
if i can choose everything all over again
i wish that i wouldnt have tried so hard for everything
end up putting so much burden
so much unhappiness
on my self
whats the point?
making my life more difficult
i get scoldings just because i am saying wad i felt
i say that i;m tired
i say that i have alot of things to do
i say that i attended school everyday
is it worth it or not
working so hard and getting myself hurt and getting all the scoldings in the end
what do i benefit from it?
so why am i working so hard for?
do i continue to be the way i am?
and continue hoping that things will change for the better?
you'll are the ones that doesnt want to trust me
dont let me bring keys out
dont believe what i say at all
and this is wad u called freedom?
NOW i get scoldings just because i reach home and ask ppl to open the door for me
i dont have keys
if i dont ask someone to open for me
how am i going to get into the house?
whats the prob i really dunno
i'm tired not only mentally
but physically
AND mentally
to my mummy:
if u really likes to see me getting scolded by daddy den go ahead
since u're happy with it i got nth to say
i am tired of talking to u
to my daddy:
if u think that i am such an irresponsible person
w/o even hearing what i have to say
u dont trust me there's nth i can do
forget it
to all my good frens out there:
thanks for being with me everytime i'm sad
but this time its gonna be hard
