yes

now i know

know that i shouldn't be so stupid anymore

i should just get on with life

and i shouldn't even waste my time on ppl who dont appreciate me

its not worth it

getting upset over all these stupid things

but it cant be controlled

now i know how much i really meant

i waited ytd

waited for 3 hrs so that we can all go off tgt

but i didnt know that yr went off

off to gelare

fun huh

enjoy den

i wont be so stupid anymore

i wont be waiting

its a WASTE of my time

haha

3hours wad a joke!

因为我太傻

因为我太笨

i shouldnt have waited

yr just left without a sound

its all repeating its all back to the start

maybe all good things at the beginning will still turn out bad

so forget it

hope that tmr nv comes

no one will understand the way i feel now...

the feeling sucks..

just so complicated that i dk how the hell to describe...

i think i'll go mad one day if this continues...

i'm not a good leader

not a good fren

not a good daughter

and maybe not a good gf

JUST NOT GOOD ENUF

and i never will

Less freedom

More assumptions

Less concern

More Requirements

Less respect

Limited abilities

What should I do now?

WHAT can i do now?

I myself don't even know how i am feeling now.

It's 10000000........X worst then being sad-.-

its all mixed up

=( =( =( =( =(

i dont want ppl to think that wad i have gt today is bcos of that...

If you think you've alot of good frens in this sch,

den continue to be naive.

If you think that you're that great,

let me tell you,

you're NOT!

If you don't show me any respect,

I DON'T see the point in showing you respect anymore.

If you think that our class if a fucked up class,

and our school is a fucked up school,

then why stay?

GET OUT then...

Before YOU start calling other ppl bitch fuckers or bastards,

don't you yrself think that you are the greatest example?

what a joke a fucker bastard going around calling ppl his name?

If you said you really cared about the captain position and NOT the fame,

then i think you are seriously lying.

please take a look in the mirror before YOU start commenting on other ppl,

look at yr darn sucky attitude!

NOTHING good comes out off yr mouth.

WHO would wanna respect you?

SO PLEASE THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK

if you think that whole world has to do things yr way,

then get out of this world and start another yourself.

yeah?

hope 100000000000000000000...... ulcers grow in yr mouth until u cnt talk...

FAT ASS!!!! ahahahahahahahahahhaaa

i duno if i had made the right decision...

it took me very long to consider passing that letter to u...

THIS is how i feel now...

zzzzz....

i can fall asleep even with everything that i'm doing..

my brain's functioning slowly or even not functioning...
i need a BREAK!

too many things to do too little time

had 3hrs of mt today...

and the best part is my MT results sucks seriously...

wonder how i'm going to survive alevel mt exam...

i have to learn to complain less,

and thanks others more...

maybe i should learn how to be more open-minded,

and be grateful for what i have..

because i know i still have many good friends:)

i shall not read too much in to things anymore..

learnt to be more ignorant

because...

ignorance is bliss:D

maybe i should care lesser about what others think about me..

just be who i wanna be..

i'll try and change...

GET WELL SOON, my dear BRO!!!!!!!!!

The first time I felt so unwanted by you was the times when you were with JJ. He hit me because of you and right in front of you and you did nothing about it. Remember why? I guess u have already forgot about this incident...

And In Sec4, I admit that I am sometimes super unhappy because there are a lot of times when you just walked away with ChoonHan without saying anything to me. After school you would just leave with him. Some of the times, I didn’t even know you left, and I was still looking for you, until someone tells me that you had already went off. Every time I see you walking out of the class with him, not even saying anything to me, I feel so useless, it’s like I’m someone that is just so insignificant, or maybe just some one for you when there’s no others for you to turn to. Even during lunch, you would say you don’t want to eat, when I say I want to go downstairs to eat, you will say that you’re lazy. So, I had to go alone, I seriously don’t like the feeling of being lonely. And there was once when I came back to class you were not there, but went down to had ice-cream with him, even after you told me that you are lazy to go downstairs. I felt so hurt.

There are times when I text you, you never replied me, but you replied the others. I don’t know why this is so. Honestly, I have tried asking XJ and Edwin to msg you to see if you replied them, every time you replied them and never replied me. At that time, I felt so pissed, it’s like I am so unimportant to you. I made this known to you a number of times then you finally replied me. But your replies are still so different from how you replied the others. The reply you gave me are always one word long or maybe longest a few words. I really don’t understand why its just so different. Even until today, the way you message me is still so different from how u msged the others. This year, there was once we were going to watch movie during June holidays, you were at Adelene’s house and Philo was with me, we msged you and the replies we got are just so different. You repliedonly 1 or 2 of my msges and u stopped replying, but u replied him so many more, I saw the way u msged him, its like so different from mine, I don’t know why you cant reply me the same way also. Maybe it’s just so different I guess. I don’t understand I seriously don’t. Why?

we are just so different from others...

i am tired of

repeating the

everything

over and

overagain

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRIEND!:)

...life sucks...

...everything sucks...

...yeah?...

You can't take back the words you said.

You can't undo what you have done,

what's done is done, don't regret.

Everything has changed,

you can't get back what you have lost,

because I have decided that i shall not repeat the cycle anymore.

That's course I'm tired.

Tired of trying.

At least I'm better with the way things are going now:)

because I have choose to live with people who accept me for who I'm.

i hope everything will be fine now...

at least with my frens..

if u dont appreciate wad i do for u den there's no point being frens anymore i guess..

School sucks..

and everything sucks...

is this wad i called frens..

now

i am NOT the ONLY ONE that thinks you 2 doesnt treat us like frens..

i dunno wad u all want!

i dunno how u all feel!

HEY LOOK!

i am a human too

no difference from the both of you..

i do have feelings...

but do your treat me like one?

i am NOT a robot!...

i am tired of trying..

trying so HARD!

trying so so so hard to start a conversation with both of you...

but what yr do is just reply for the sake of replying!..

just tell me wads wrong..

wads the prob???

if u 2 dont say i wont know anything..

then there's really nothing i can do...

just tell me i am tired of guessing..

and this is not the first time your treat me this way...

i have tried everything that i could...

i'm exhausted..

i'm tired...

when yr got no one to go to then come to me...

u threw yr bags on our table and went off to sat at the other table to have fun with some other guys, u 2 came back took yr bag and walk off, just like that??

how will u feel when yr frens went off quiely behind u w/o even saying a simple goodbye???

the cycle repeats

i am tired of everything...

i really feel like just giving everything up...

but do yr know how hard it is when i treat yr as real good frens?

and when yr treat me like that its enough

why do yr want to treat sky like that too?

are yr brainless?

LOW EQ?
cant u see that she is very moody recently...

alot of things happened but do yr know?

do yr even cared?

is this wad i called frens?

yr didnt help her but now ignore her like that too..

just so heartless..

i'm speechless...

i seriously dont uds wad is going on!

tell me why!

everything just seems to come crashing down on me..

so many things to do

so little time...

so many responsibilities...

so many things to worry about...

so many things have been happening..

everything's so confusing...

i am tired...

i really hope the time would really stop...

even for a few second i am contented..

i really need some time off from school..

i am really really tired..

if i'm given just 1 day..

or even just 1 hr to be free from all these things

i would be so grateful...

to my dear girl, cheer up please i dun wanna see u so sad everyday...u got to get over her...she's not worth yr love at all..seeing u so helpless there's really nothing i can do...u gt to be strong! mid course is the most important thing now...i want u to go thru my jc life with me=)