4march2010

It isn't easy being a leader. Am I capable of being one in the first place.
To be a leader u have to be accepted and respected by everyone.
It isn't easy. Can I do it?
I don't know. Time will tell.


I hate school but I look forward to going to school later on.
How contradicting.
That's is because I'm eager to see my friends again.
I am a running addict. I want to run tmr.
It's been so long since I last enjoyed running so much.

Happy birthday Clarence!:)

" we need someone to who have leadership skills, and not anyone who can just do the job"

"if u know, u cant do it,then jolly well pull up your socks and get someone else to do it"

" are u even serious about the meeting, u are just joking around"

yes i'm may not a good leader, but at least i tried my best.

in the end i still get all these nasty comments.

what can i do?

i really dont know what else to do since i already tried my best

maybe its time i should really consider about myself being a house cap.

its like everything always started out well for me but never failed to have a bad ending

i dont understand why

no matter how much effort i put in doing something

things will still end up the same way

so why am i trying so hard for?

is it my problem?

my attitude?

my character?

i dont know

just tell me what should i do now

i am so stuck in this situation that i dont know how to move on

i am a captain but cant even have the power to say anything

its like there're ppl who support me

there'll are ppl who hates me and trying to overthrow me

i dont know i really dont know wad to do

can someone please help me???

I have failed!

ITS BEEN 2 DAYS....

since holiday ended..

since school started..

busy with sch...

leaving school late...

seeing my friends...

seeing my classmates...

seeing my teachers..

i am feeling scared..

felling scared...

going home late...

continuous scolding...

of ignorance...

since i feel so good after some talks with the council ppl..

uncompleted holiday assignments...

never-ending work to do...

and many many more...

AND

since i last hear from u..

imissyou

and i think its time i should let go..

but now i am cramped with things to do

no time to rest and relax

i just like to be the old me

AND where are u when i need u?

after having so many activities for this stupid holiday

everything seems so tough

even at home

everything just sucks

if i can choose everything all over again

i wish that i wouldnt have tried so hard for everything

end up putting so much burden

so much unhappiness

on my self

whats the point?

making my life more difficult

i get scoldings just because i am saying wad i felt

i say that i;m tired

i say that i have alot of things to do

i say that i attended school everyday

is it worth it or not

working so hard and getting myself hurt and getting all the scoldings in the end

what do i benefit from it?

so why am i working so hard for?

do i continue to be the way i am?

and continue hoping that things will change for the better?

you'll are the ones that doesnt want to trust me

dont let me bring keys out

dont believe what i say at all

and this is wad u called freedom?

NOW i get scoldings just because i reach home and ask ppl to open the door for me

i dont have keys

if i dont ask someone to open for me

how am i going to get into the house?

whats the prob i really dunno

i'm tired not only mentally

but physically

AND mentally

to my mummy:

if u really likes to see me getting scolded by daddy den go ahead

since u're happy with it i got nth to say

i am tired of talking to u

to my daddy:

if u think that i am such an irresponsible person

w/o even hearing what i have to say

u dont trust me there's nth i can do

forget it

to all my good frens out there:

thanks for being with me everytime i'm sad

but this time its gonna be hard

maybe wad i have thought so is true...

2010 will be a sucky year...

ilovemassdance!woots!

u can take it as nothing had happened but i cant....

FINALLY finish this stupid proposal

i fell asleep doing it last night leaving the lights and everything on

woke up after like 4hrs of sleep and continued

maybe we all just live in a totally different world

we do things differently

but that doesnt mean we're not doing anything

u think we dont understand yr council life?

think again!

thats yr cca

its YOUR JOB

NOT ours

now you all are the ones that need our help

and u're showing all your attitudes

COMEON LAH

we have much more things to do than all of you!

at least your still HAVE Time for CHALET

we dont

we gotta attend your cca and trying to uds yr stupid council life

ON TOP OF OUR OWN CCAs and commitments

AND

we still have the finale and our own hse banners to come up with!

do your all uds our life?

NO RIGHT?

then stop trying to say that WE dont uds yr STUPID council life

we have got much more better things to do

WHY NOT

U TRY TO UDS US????

WISHES FOR THE YEAR!

-get B for econs homecoming exam!

-get at least 2 As for block test

-a night out w/o having to go home

-have many many good friends

-more ppl caring for me

-have a nicer and a more peaceful home

-MORE FREEDOM!

-more new clothes

-BE HAPPIER

-BETTER LIFE!

-READY AND PREPARED FOR ALEVELS!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR WORLD!

got a last min plan today

but i guessed its bcos u have no one to go with u

so ended up with me

can count yrself unlucky?

i dk

i really really feels that 2010 will be a lousy year for me

believe it or not up to u

2009 sucks

and i think 2010 will sucks even more

BUT i still hope everything will change

kill this emo-ness in me now pls